Day 23. Saturday May 21. Will deliver alone today for lunch. Lucked out again. Most of the orders were deliveries and tips were good. Made about ninety bucks. Could not stay as long as I wanted. Andrew called off for tomorrow night and I must work. Had a late dinner. The bartender at Napoli’s looks real familiar – cannot remember where I know her from.

Day 24. Sunday May 22.

Day 47. Wednesday June 15. It’s been 47 days since I’ve gambled. I miss it. It was my main source of amusement and it kept me out of the house. I think about going to WV but that’s kinda far. Although I am not gambling I continue on with other bad habits like staying up late to watch tv and going to Starbucks. Now that school is out I am going to get registered with an employment agency and do temp work. That should eliminate part of both problems. I want to have enough money saved by the end of the summer to move with Tampa being the most likely destination.

Tomorrow I want to cut the grass (front only) and shampoo the carpets. Also straighten up in the garage and basement. And do some shopping. And finally post my bike to Craigslist (I sold the bike in 2024. Thirteen years after I wrote this).

Day 53. Tuesday June 21.

Day 59. Monday June 27. Have not yet got back into work mode. working at Vocelli’s a lot, but staying up late to watch tv and sleeping in. Woke at 10:24 today and after masturbating got up at 11:30. I showered, went to Starbucks, ate a bowl of cereal, and am now getting to paperwork that I should have finished a while ago.

Day 83. Thursday July 21. Yesterday I made the first attempt at going to a casino. I tried the casinos in WV and Ohio. The WV casinos did not have enough action in their poker rooms and the Ohio casinos are too far away (as I will find out later making the 2.5 hour drive to Cleveland is not “too far” to drive to lose money playing Pot Limit Omaha). If I want to play I will have to go to Atlantic City or somewhere else out of state.

The drugs made me drowsy, and even after eight hours in bed I still have to force myself to get up.

At times I regret having myself banned for gambling in PA. If only I had the control to limit myself to once a week but I have to face it that I am compulsive about everything and I find gambling to be exciting.

I asked out Angela Monday night. (I can’t remember who this is.) She seemed to take it well. She just said “we’ll see.”

My biggest monthly expense is still eating out. Cooking at home would certainly save me a lot of money.

Day 97. Thursday August 4. Yesterday I made my fourth trip to Mountaineer casino. I finished $116 up (playing Hold-em) and four four sessions am down $148. I do not play aggressively there as I did at River’s. Maybe because it is a new place or maybe because I am afraid of losing. Wed nights seem to be the best day to play, other than Saturday. Maybe I’ll try one more trip. I don’t want this to become a habit as it takes too much time and gas with the traveling.

This summer has been kinda slow. Only working. Haven’t done anything for fun except the occasional movie. I need to start planning a trip for September. Should probably take some time and send out resumes. I am still getting emails from PEAP so there must be job openings. And I must get in touch with employment agencies about temp work – and write – I am way behind on my writing goals.

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Recovery Day 15. Friday May 13.

Recovery Day 16. Saturday May 14.

A very dull day for me. Saw ‘Fast Five.’ Today was the first day on the pill. Felt the effects immediately…lasted much longer when I masturbated last night.

Recovery Day 17. Sunday May 15.

I do not remember much about this day.

Recovery Day 18. Monday May 16.

Subbed, worked at Vocelli.

Recovery Day 19. Tuesday May 17.

Did not sub, was woken out of bed by dad, who wanted to talk about me moving. He did not call first and claimed to have stopped because he saw my car. I was noticeably angry so he left.

Recovery Day 20. Wednesday May 18.

School today. Third day of drug. Again taking much longer to ejaculate and the orgasms are more intense. I wonder what will happen when the dose doubles. Very tired. I need to sleep more. Do not work tonight. Will try to nap but will end up doing nothing. Should finish sorting the dads and finally post the bike on Craigslist. Kordelia Devonshire (a professional dominatrix) is coming to PGH – will I have enough money to afford her? Another boring day at school. But the kids are being nice.

Recovery Day 21. Thursday May 19.

Nothing to report, payday is tomorrow. I really need to check my checking account but I’m afraid at what I will find. I also need to find out the last days available for sub assignments and finally get the bike on Craigslist. And get registered with RFI:AOC (Robert Half International. Accountants On Call).

Recovery Day 22. Friday May 20.

Payday, and finished a four day week of subbing. Must try to get all the days in subbing as I can. June 20th will be the last possible day to sub. Kind of lucked out at work. We only had one driver after…so I got to take deliveries.