Day 5. Tuesday May 3.

Nothing to write about today, though I did go to Starbucks three times. I must stop this (Update April 20, 2025: I haven’t.).

Day 6. Wednesday May 4.

Nothing going on today. I don’t have school but work at Vocelli’s later. I still think of the mistakes I made the last three sessions of playing poker and how if I did not make them I would still be able to play. Once the money builds up and I am able to do other things maybe the thoughts will go away (Worst thing about addiction is that the thoughts never go away. I think about playing poker everyday and look for placeholders to satisfy my need to play, i.e. playing 8-handed by myself, watching Youtube videos, etc).

I still need to find a better job than the both I have now. Now that it is May sub assignments will become easier and I can take more. School A and School C are almost done but School B continues until the third week of June.

Scott is in trouble at work and Ahmet wants his son to work more. I hope Angela comes back (she never did) so Andrew A does not need to be there.

I spoke to Angela. She is not coming back. She did not say why. I hope to get an explanation (I didn’t, but then she was a high school kid so I shouldn’t have expected one.) I also hope she is ok over the summer and can find work.

Day 7. Thursday May 5.

KDKA (the local CBS affiliate, and the first AM radio station in US history…I believe) ran a story on how River’s Casino ruined a man’s life. I want to watch the story online and see how his story and mine compare, and also to tell the reporter to find out how many people have been self-excluded for another way to gauge how many lives were ruined. No reason to have legalized gambling unless you want this to happen.

I have an idea of filing a class-action lawsuit against the PA government to get back what compulsive gamblers have lost.

Usually I look forward to Saturday’s because I know I will have at least 1.5 days off but this week. I work 7-10 today, 7-12 on Friday, all day Saturday with Andrew A., then Sunday night, then Mon and Tues…At least I have a doctor’s appointment on Monday as a little bit of a break.

Day 8. Friday May 6.

Today is payday. A good day, except most of my pay will be needed to pay bills. Ahmet paid too many too much cash, he does not listen. On Monday I will report him. The drawer was short $22. Ahmet’s idiot son took $20 and didn’t say anything about it.

Day 9. Saturday May 7.

Got to deliver alone today. Made about $55 which paid for the movie I saw tonight. A very slow day. Missed Angela when she came in for her check.

Saw ‘Thor.’ Ok. The effects are a little fuzzy and hard to see.