Sunday May 1, 2011

I did not get a paycheck from Bethel yesterday, but I do have about $100 dollars in tip money from yesterday and I will be listing my bike on Craigslist, so hopefully there will be money coming in there. And, as of now, I have a nine day work week coming up. I will be too busy to spend money.

Angela is insisting that i changed the schedule yesterday after it read that she was done at five. This is not true but will be believed by everyone of course. It really saddens me that our relationship will end under these terms but i must keep reminding myself that Angela knew all along when she was done and did not take the proper steps to be able to leave early. This will be hard for a while; I have no friends or confidants and no one to tell me that I am right (I can’t believe I actually wrote this), it is important for people to hear that and have support. This is my fault, and my life is the way it is.

I deposited $192 in the bank today. My back account reads that i have $126.45 available. I saw this amount and immediately thought of going to the casino – and i thought that i will – i can’t get by for a week on $26. Then it hit me that I am excluded from all casinos in PA. No wonder I am so bored. I can afford a movie tonight.